When you cannot receive…

I have been blessed with an enormous gift that includes time. 
I cannot open my hand and receive it.
Take my hand.  Take my shoulder. Lean on me.
No. No. No. No. 
I can give. I cannot receive.
I am a giver you see. I cannot receive. 
Take kindness. Take encouragement. Take support. 
No. No. No. No.
I have to give. I cannot receive.
I have to give. I cannot receive. 
I have to give. I cannot receive.  
I have to give. I cannot receive. 
I have to give. I have to balance the scales .
I have to give. I have to tip the scales against me.
I have to give. I have to give. I have to give.
I cannot receive. 
I have to give. I cannot receive. 
Pride! Pa! I spit on it.
I have to give. I cannot receive.
Let me lack. Let me suffer. Let me take the load.
I have to give. I cannot receive.
I have to give. 
I have to give.
I have to give. 
I cannot receive. 
Lord, please hear me. 
I have to give. I cannot receive.
Here is my pride. Take my pride.
I have to give. I cannot receive.
Lord, please help me. 
I have to give. I cannot receive.
Lord, please shield me.
Here is the deception that clouds my mind.
I have to give. I cannot receive.
Lord, please protect me.
Here is my self righteousness and selfishness.
I have to give. I cannot receive. 
Lord cleanse me. 
I have to give. I cannot receive.
Here is my need to control everything, including myself. 
I need to give. I cannot receive. 
Lord, take the reigns.
I need to give. I need to receive.
Take my hand.  Take my shoulder. Lean on me.
I need to give. I need to receive.
Take kindness. Take encouragement. Take support. 
I need to give. I need to receive.
Take grace. Take help. Take. Take. Take.
I need to give. I need to receive.
Help me Lord.
I need to give. I need to receive.
Help me Lord.
I need to give. I need to receive.
Help me Lord.
I receive.
Help me Lord.
I receive.
Help me.
I receive.
Child…
Thank You Lord.
Love and Blessings!
xOx

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