2020 has been a difficult year for everyone and I am no different. As I type, I am under my duvet, fresh tears drying on my face because of some bad news, the heater on full blast, swallowing my pride yet again, thinking about my life and what I have learned from this year.
In looking back at this year, my big takeaway has been humility. I have been humbled differently and I can see how, although I have not liked the methods, I am a better person for it.
From being lifted off the floor, butt naked by four nurses because I was unable to move or walk, to being nursed by my Mum, to feeling like I was drowning in darkness, to biting my tongue in a team meeting when, all I really wanted to do was tell everybody and their brother how wrong they were, to apologising and actually accepting the other person did things better than I would. To accepting that there are certain things I will be unable to do by myself, at least for a while.
This year has been rough! It has been rough rough! I got some more bad news and I have to stop and think. It cannot be a “why me?” routine again so, I have to start asking why?
Earlier today, I was thinking about kind people and why kind people are kind. I realised that no one is born kind. People learn to be kind because they understand the pain/shame/embarrassment or need that may be plaguing the person they are choosing to show kindness to. It is because of this empathy that their kindness thrives. I believe that, but for their personal experience, that kindness would be MIA.
Which led me to start thinking about how God works in and through us…see verse below:
‘For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him’ – Philippians 2:13 NLT
I believe that every time we go through hard time, a difficult time or an embarrassing time, God uses it to teach us so that we can learn from it, grow from it and help others. I am now convinced of this. I think about the numerous times I have acted because I understood how the other person may be feeling and watched their reaction, confirm this theory, again and again.
Do you feel like you are going through the wringer? Do you feel like every bad thing is happening to you? Do you feel hurt and rejected? Helpless and alone? Do you feel afraid? Wounded? Angry at the way something played out? Remember the feeling. It will happen again to someone else in front of you.
This is a reminder to treat that person how you wanted someone to treat you.
I truly believe that this may be how God teaches us and makes us better people. It is our place to learn quickly and do better. This does not mean that you will not go through hard times when you do learn, it just means that with each hard experience, we hopefully become better and better until Jesus returns.
That is the work God is doing in us.
I pray the following over you as I pray over myself. In the hope that we do become better, kinder, more patient and humble. I pray that we learn from each struggle and strive to be to others what we want for ourselves…and in that way, make the world a better place.
‘And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns’ – Philippians 1:6 NLT
In Jesus name, Amen
Love and Blessings,